Theatrics

I took the final for my math class tonight. I think I did pretty well. I've passed the class, that's for sure. My final for my personal finance class rolls around on Monday and then I am done. Done, finished, completed for the semester. Woohoo. Bring on the Spring 2006 semester! Didn't really do much else today, though. Tomorrow, I'll probably spend most of my day cleaning and then I head off to volunteer at the theater. The year is winding down for me.

Been thinking more and more about my goals lately. I'm very close to making a final decision of pursuing a career in the theater. The only thing holding me back are those nagging doubts. Once I make this decision, it will affect everything in my world. (1) Money. If I decide on a career in the theater, I'm most likely not going to be making a lot of money, so I should spend less of what I have now. (2) Relationships. I've spent enough time with professional actors around here to know that the majority of relationships don't work out. It's a lot harder on both people involved. (3) The most important one: it's the road less traveled. I'd be going off the beaten path down a road that is scary and unpredictable. It's not the average career option for this area (which focuses mostly on business, teaching and nursing).

I know this is what I'm meant for; I can feel it in my bones. I've never been happier or have fit in more than when I am working at a theater in some capacity. This is where I belong. My goal is not to become famous (as I know that'd lead me down a very destructive path, besides being highly unlikely). I just want to stay in small and medium theater. I have no dreams of grandeur.

I remember when I was in elementary school, a group of us were writing a movie script. We had parts for ourselves in there. We wanted to be stars. Then, we wanted to be in a band. Normal kid things. Now, they've all marched down other paths and if I decide on a life in theater, I'll be the only one following that dream. Which almost makes me want to do it even more for those kids that had the dream. (Sappy thought, I know.)

It's scary making a decision that takes you down a different route than most people. I'll face a lot of opposition along the way, I know. Hey, I've already faced that opposition. A few people have tried to talk me down from a life in theater, but I now know that it is their own insecurity that they were sharing.

So, I guess it sounds like I have already decided what I'm going to do with my life. Scary. Well, at least it will be interesting if nothing else! Here we go...