Easier Said Than Done

My couch arrived today! I put it together and it looks wonderful. It actually feels more like an apartment with a couch in it. It adds a whole new aura to the apartment.

I'm starting to think Karma is finally catching up with me. I spent many years letting people hurt and walk all over me with no attempt at stopping them. Life has really been a downward spiral since 2001, but in the last few weeks it seems like life is on the upswing. I picture it as a line graph and that little black line is finally traveling north.

I have a weight problem. I don't really know how to define it other than to say I feel like Oprah. I gain massive amounts of weight and lose a lot, then gain it back, lose it... but always in erratic numbers. I gained over 50 pounds in 2002 due to a medication I was on (Zyprexa, and I warn you all to stay the hell away from it) and lost it within weeks after quitting it. Today I saw the largest man I have ever seen; he couldn't have been more than a few pounds from being a shut-in. It really makes you think about how it can get so bad. I look at myself and I see all these pounds and flabby areas growing and I think, "Oh, it's not too bad." Or, "I'll start exercising and lose it... but after I eat this bag of Doritos and this family size seafood platter." I am going to have to make an honest effort to get into shape... first step... I need to quit Mello Yello. I have a serious Mello Yello addiction... I'm up to about 7 cans a day. This will be the hardest part... next will have to be the fatty foods.

I ordered some CDs online yesterday. Bonnie Raitt's new CD, Souls Alike, Patty Loveless's new CD, Dreamin' My Dreams, and Tracy Chapman's new CD, Where You Live. They all came out in the last week or so... and well, I was online and the debit card happened to be near... Okay, after I get my food and drink addiction handled I will take on my spending issues.

I keep having the same words flash across my mind though... "Easier said than done." Hmm..